Endless Summer Pride and Joy

Introducing: my 'Endless Summer' Hydrangea! I absolutely had to post pictures of the one true success of my attempts at gardening over the past year. I'm so excited that it's blooming so well! :)

32 Weeks and Considering Elective C-Section

It's amazing how a tiny person who doesn't even know you exist can dominate such a huge chunk of your waking thoughts. She's not even 4 pounds yet, and I'm already consumed with the urge to hold her, kiss her, feel her tiny toes. Nevermind that she wouldn't be able to breathe on her own if she was born right now. :) It's all about what mommy wants!!

I am officially 8 months pregnant today (on a 10 month scale) and I'm ready to be done baking her. First trimester woes - fatigue and nausea - are coming back to haunt me, plus the huge belly and constant internal kickboxing going on make me tired of being an oven and ready to be a second time mommy.

I'm also done hearing that I'm "all baby." Seriously people, it's not like I'm starving myself to be this way. Doc says that I've been gaining weight normally since the middle of the 2nd trimester, and that including the weight I gained back after losing it in the first trimester, I've gained 9 pounds so far. If I continue to gain a pound a week until she's born, I will have gained 17 pounds by the end. Less than I did with Ava, but only because I didn't have morning sickness with her.

I spoke to the doctor last week about the possibility of an elective c-section. Because my old hernia has been bothering me for a few months, I'm afraid that pushing during labor might aggravate it or cause it to herniate again. And, to be perfectly honest, I'm terrified of painful labor, terrified of tearing or having an episiotomy done, terrified of not knowing when she's going to arrive. Since I know what it's like to recover from a c-section and have been told that recovery from an elective c-section is much easier than from emergency AND I would get to pick out her birthday, I'm leaning heavily toward elective. Doc says that they usually schedule them for a week before the due date, which would technically be July 4th for Cadence, but because of the holiday it would probably be pushed back to July 7th. 07-07-08. :) I'll see if I can schedule it for then at my 33 week prenatal appointment next week.